Sunday, February 24, 2013

challenged. whats invading your spirit

so this morning a kids princess show was on and i was getting breakfast.. 
ava asked me a few times to change the channel but i was in the middle of eggs and just didnt get in  fast enough... 
soon i hear loud singing and jack and ella protesting and walked in to the living room to see ava singing 

" no sweeter name than the name of Jesus"
.. and waving her arms in front of the tv... 

after i asked what in the world.. she calmly and matter of factly replied.

 "actually mommy, jesus made me to tell people that pretend magic is ok but real magic is not. and this show is not pretend. it makes me tummy hurt and me didnt want the kids.( jack & ella) to learn about it. so me sang them a song and waited for you. "

i changed the channel. 

and we prayed together- and my sweet 3 year old asked Jesus to take that show out her mind and out of the "kids" minds. 

oh Ava im so sorry for not being more sensitive to the things that are invading your spirit.. 

Thank you Lord for hearing my hearts cry and binding my babies hearts to Yours.. for letting them hear Your voice... 

May You continue to speak Your will over Avas life and the call You have already placed upon her heart. 

challenged. totally.

like arrows in the hands of a warrior..our children need to be shaped well....

oh Lord- forgive me and lead me

Monday, February 18, 2013

they say

"When I was a star in the sky I thought about what mommy I want and picked you mommy. And i ask Jesus and he said yes and then I did it for daddy to - I picked you."
-ava- 3 1/2

Dan asked jack " what would Jesus do?" ( sharing ) and jack said "I don't know! Me never met that guy before!"

Ava i love when you hug with eyes closed " cause that what people do" and when you give out "married kisses'' ( a pursed lip- slow smooch sound included kiss to the cheek - cause ava doesnt do lips.. soo funny)

Jack you have the sweetest sleepy smell.. I love to bury my face in your soft skin and smile as you say don't sniff my smell up you ll waste it!

Saturday, February 16, 2013


oh i love this Christmas ( valentines..) Mommy!!

you mean valentines day?!
 no i mean this Christmas.. i know all about Christmas mommy.. and this is it... presents and love .. and snow and red and love and love and love so there! it IS Christmas... and me LOVE it......


JACK upon waking up said wheres my treat mommy? wheres my love treat.? opens his goodie bag of little toy fire engine and book  and movie.. no mommy.. .. no { shaking head}.. dont you love me as much as a cupcake??? then wheres MY CUPCAKE???

so i made cinnamon rolls.

Friday, February 8, 2013


i have a restless spirit.
my soul has found rest in our mighty God but my spirit?... 
my spirit is restless... 
restless for wind and rain and crashing waves...wanting to go explore.. to discover....

i crave the ocean. its as if my body belongs there.. the ebb and flow of the water.. the crashing of the waves.. the calm before a storm .. the salt, the air and mist- the sand. 

i need it. i connect to it. its a part of me... 

and in the same way my spirit is  restless for the flooding of the Holy Spirit. 
for the ebb and flow of the Voice of the Lord.. for the waves and the calm.. 
 the ocean will never satisfy.. 
 but the Spirit can- i will long always for more... 

nothing else will do.

we are getting ready for a big ol' blizzard .. 30+ inches!!! 
plans include.. coffee... cupcakes....valentines crafts.. and veggie tales...


A: sometimes me don't sometimes me did. Depends on if its.. Thursday or not.

J: hey sisters.. Mommy made sausage for me cause me her little boy, And chicken for you cause you are girls and you have feathers.

 "oh mommy..oh no.. me turned this on ( holding my watch ..) why me do that? why me touch your beautiful watch mommy? me not want to cause you wont like it but my hands are just going crazy touching it...'

Ella is my peaceful spot. She gets me.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013


sang a new song during worship this sunday.. "God my Rock" {paul beloche}...some of the lyrics say 
'when my heart is overwhelmed i will look to you alone God my rock... you strenthgen my heart.. you are the joy of my life.. my song in the night.. in the blessing and in the pain throughit all you still strenghten my heart. god my rock god my rock god my rock...'

have so much swirling in my spirit this morning...
 could weigh me down hardcore but this song is on repeat in my head... 
strengthening my heart bigtime. 

saying "I trust you Jesus" just slips out of my mouth but is alittle more stubborn as it leaves my spirit.. why is it so hard to trust a God who never fails? 
why am i such a silly girl doubting his perfect plan? 

feeling lonely but not alone today.
-yet everytime i say it - i can feel my spirit grow more sure..
 'Jesus i trust in you .. i trust in you .. i trust in you.... 

Monday, February 4, 2013

dont forget

Ava wanting to have our usual before dinner  dance party in the kitchen. but first!!! carefully .. and i mean carefully applied pretend Lipstick to our lips... then pronounced us ready to dance...

Jack was in time out for pushing Ava.. & Ava comforted him by crooning.. "avas here.. avas here.. i forgive you avas here..mommys so fresh mommys so fresh time out is almost over...(repeat)...."

Ava announcd one night tht she wanted to go to a dinosour museum... 
then quickly
 ( in the same breath) said 
"i changed my mind about seeing Dinosours mommy... And i don't want to talk about it....And I'm  not giving up. ..Where'd me learn that?? ...Weird..."

Ava: after hearing my sigh.. said " i know how you feel mommy.. i have alot of kids too...."

Ava: "where are you going to milk Ella mommy? im trying to get a good seat"

"Me love your squishy soft boobs mommy,  me love touching two boobs cause mostly they used to be mine."

Jack upon me waking him for doc.. "So rude mommy. I don't understand you."

Ava: "jack sure does love tubas" after jack asked to watch veggie tales episode gideon and the tuba army for the 100 time....

oh i just love

When Ella pushes my hair out of my face after I do hers.

How she sweetly asks for more milk..signing and saying "mo?" and poins to .. the milk..

How she walks around with her tongue out...just to be fresh

How when she gets a snack the first thing shes does is fold her hands to pray and then always..always.. finds a chair and pushes it to table to sit and eat...kicking her feet happily.

How when its naptime she looks around for her baby and purses her lips  for kisses

how she hugs fiercely and dances to her own beat.

oh ella- our peaceful gift. i love you


Ava: mommy.. What did the broom eat for dinner?


Um mommy? That's a joke.. Ill tell you again then you can laugh.....

After I laughed... Ava followed it up with ..
Glasses eat eyes.. And fans eat light bulbs.
She's a gem.