so this is the 1st Christmas in 3 years that I'm not pregnant...!
sang breath of heaven for the 20th Christmas Eve service....
love the silence tonight...wrapping a few last gifts...adding bows ..
enjoying the solitude..thinking about how Mary felt once Joseph got her all settled in the warm stable...expectant....
tonight I feel expectant.
in a whole new way..
ready to walk in my new calling..expecting great things..
to soak it all in.. time is going by so fast... right now:
Ava & Jack are chatting and playing with new Christmas tool set...laying on their tummys..little PJ legs in the air..
the smell of coffee..eggs & toast...& sweet sleepy babies is in the air.
Dan is fresh from the shower and clicking on the computer..
Ella is snuggled up with me on the couch..holding my hand..I can't get enough of her sweet skin and little baby sounds...her eyes smiling at me..
o family grow slow.
today Ava & Jack spent quite some time running between all of the windows..looking for snow!
finally Ava patted Jack on the back and said sadly...
"its ok jackboy...snows taking a nap.."
Ava spent 1/2 an hour tonight pushing her baby carriage from the playroom...(where daddy was) to the bathroom ( where I was giving Jack a bath) opposite ends of house ....
with her eyes closed...
or mostly...closed...
and when she arrived at her intended destination....
she joyfully opened her eyes and exclaimed
" I made it!"
o lord. let me give you my sight and allow you to lead me..knowing ill be able to joyfully say..
" I made it!!"
...Jack running to get the spattula whenever he hears music so he can play his " guitar " like pop....
...Ava staring at the lit Christmas tree..whisering ..." o wow...o wow..."
sweet mama & baby dates a starbucks....Ava & Jack take 1 si of that ice cold water ..with a green straw and starting exclaiming .." o wow nummmm num yummy.." like its the best water ever.
Ella and daddy laughing.
goodnight kisses
good morning smiles.
the loud & joyful " amen!" after prayers.
everyday.
spent day running errands with my girls....unusual.
chatting it up with Ava...buy this..need to buy that...
as I buckled her into her seat I said
o Ava I need a kiss..she said..buy one mama.money?
then covered her lips with one hand and held out the other.
kisses for sale.
sitting in the bathroom..snuggling Ella..watching my beautiful Jack with the long lashes slowly fill up each cup and carefully arrange them on the edge...I feel like he's growing..actually growing before my eyes...every now and then he makes a cooking sound.
sizzzle.
other than that its just baby coos and water splashing...companionable quiet. my big boy.
