oh love

last night ava  & jack spent a lonngg time hugging and kissing goodnight.. 

( an attempt to delay??) 

its was the sweetest time though.. so we let them kiss and snuggle alittle extra..... 

finally.. after bedtime prayers (again..)  

ava blew jack  a kiss and said

"good night sweet boy see you in the morning light!!!" 

my heart.. i cant take it.... im so pleased that in spite of my shortcomings...

 our home is filled with joy and love. 

Ava - 3 1/3:

loves to be the boss (weird.)

is extremely sensitive to any little change in my voice. 

has a pile of toys but seems to only ever play with pillows & blankets, crayons & paper..

& imagination!

she has her own imaginary house filled with friends and toy and all sorts of wonderful things....

we often play imaginary board games. 

loves to feel the wind and sing her own songs

ava knows the story of her birth and how God told spoke to me and called her a fierce warrior... 

and she prays.. and asks the Lord to make her strong- to help her hear His voice...

{humbly and awesome}

this past sunday -she asked me to go to the altar with her - so we did and she prayed for her little boo boos and for her family and then she prayed that Pop ( pastor grampa!) 

would" hear the holy spirit and that the church would listen to his words with both ears...."

said amen and danced back to her seat. 

i feel so incredibly thankful that the Lord in trusted this gem to me.

Jack 2 1/2:

knows what he wants and usually gets it!!!

uses his blue eyes to his advantage... im scared .

favorite thing is to snuggle on the couch ad watch "something good"

usually veggie tales.

has an incredible eye for detail...notices when any one is wearing something new.

if i wear lipstick he says over and over how beautiful my lips are. <3 p="">

wants to be just like daddy.. always trying to fix something.

is sensitive to the things of God.. since palm sunday has daily talked about Jesus on the cross

( in a very sad and worried voice) 

is just now being to understand that Jesus died for him... and is Alive in heaven.

newest interest- ANTS! will chase them around for hours and then will sit and make up a story of their life.... ( thanks to pop and his anthony the ant stories..)

loves to worship and give kisses and hugs. 

defender of the faith! 

Ella- 1 1/2:

oh little firefly

loves to get into everything! has a strong personality! 

loves to help me make coffee in the morning and will blow on it through out.. 

take great pleasure in tormenting jack by putting her little feet on him

loves to hug and kiss and say AWWWW

still nurses 4 or 5 times a day and i dont mind a bit

walks around like an old lady stomping.. then looks back and smiles mischievously 

loves to say uh oh. is really the funniest little girl ever.

and if allowed will run out the front door and march right on over to gigi and pops house...

understands everything i say and is my bright spot for sure.

God calls her a warrior of peace. 

cant wait to learn what that means for her...

all 3 littles love to be bare foot just like mama! and would roll around in the grass all day...

in fact- thats the plan today! 

born to be wild! wild & precious.

wild & precious & free.

go fish

spent a quiet afternoon with Ava, sitting on a picnic blanket in the living room.. eating snacks.. and learning and playing "go fish"! wasn't sure how she would do.. she loved the game!! and caught on so quickly!! my favorite thing was:

'ava do you have a t-rex?'

" actually mommy, i do!"

'ava do you have a bractiosaurus?'

"unfortunately , i don't mommy... GO FISH!"

the sweetest game. the sweetest afternoon. the sweetest 3 yr old girl ever.

so its been a few weeks....heres some highlights:

- i turned 33! and I'm loving it. i feel happy and confident and beautiful and blessed and ready for whats next. ( totally opposite of how i felt at 23!)

- tattoo!!! the sandman surprised me and took me to get a tattoo for my birthday! i got an arrow on my wrist to remind me of the miracles God has given me.. in the arrow is a circle for leah - a heart for ava - a square for jack and a diamond for my bright spot ella.   the psalm says- children are like arrows in the hands of a warrior... and i want to be reminded to shape my blessing well- so they fly!!
loving it.

- cowboy jack woke up and decided to wear undies and pee on the little potty! and its been a month and counting!! very few accidents.. no more diapers!! holla!

daily the Lord has been pulling me towards him - and as i let my guarded heart open - man - God is doing amazing things... speaking to me of the plans He has for me and my family.. reminding me of the promises Hes already whispered in my ear.. my rescued - salvaged - mended heart sings and rejoices in the redemptive power of Jesus! there is power in His name!

just little things

ava and i arrived early for speech.. So we sat in the van and discussed why mommys hair is growing do slow and whether or not we should cut it ( ??? ahhhhhh!) and why nail polish chips and looks " gross- arific" .. It was insightful.

Was trying to answer Ava's questions about why Jesus went on the cross for us....
and Ava went cross eyed & said 
"that makes my brain wiggly. Tell me that again when me 4 or 7.."

Overheard: 
Ava: jack you are a boy cause Jesus decided that you are a boy. And no one can change Jesus' mind. He's the boss. So sorry- you are a boy.

Jack and Ella packing up for an adventure...where are you going jack?

" to track down an angel of The Lord!"

overheard:
Jack(2 1/2) :
ava...mommys being kinda agravatinnnnnnn right now...

Ava ( 3 1/2):
agravating? mommy? thats not kind buuuuutttt yeah mommy is.

mommy: what are you kids talking about?

a: nothing... well you but dont worry about it....

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