36 and a half weeks pregnant.

3 cm dilated.

90% effaced.

baby at 0 station (head is even with pelvic bone).

doctor predicts a monday baby.

sigh.

blessed. thankful. 

holding to the beautiful promises of my wonderful maker



i believe

36 beautiful heavy hot tired wonderful weeks pregnant!
so relieved so amazed in awe of our awesome God...
humbled to be carrying a new life...a gift from my creator...humbled to know He hears my heart.
miracles do happen.
trusting still for a healthy strong babygirl...Gods promises!
"a warrior of peace"

dear bluebird,

this morning is warm and hazy..we are snuggling as you drink your morningmilk...

your 2 yr old legs seem so long to me this morning! so creamy and white and spri kled with a few freckles..you little toenails painted red...your little girl nightgown is a bit big and hanging off one shoulder ..o ava your pudgy arms are wrapped around my neck and your soft silky golden curls smell so sweet pressed against my cheek. your lashes are so dark against your cheek and your eyes so blue as you look into mine..silently asking me to sing again. every now and then you snuggle evn closer, throwing those long legs over me..and as i lay here..with my big little girl andmy little bellybabydoll inside me..i wish time could just slooow down..just a bit...i love you my sweet girl. 

so...4 days off th procardia has produced a ton of painful semi regular but not increasing contractions....1 more progesterone shot on tuesday then...letting nature take over!

feeling sooo weak and tired from the weeks of bedrest and the constant contractions...but my heart is happy to still be pregnant! am getting excited...thinking about a possible fullterm baby!

dan and the little ones are outside in splashing in the pool...im hearing happy happy sounds!

cant believe our little family will be complete soon!

totally rambling today. still praying and searching for the perfect name for this little bundle of joy!

cant b elieve its been 8 weeks since i was hospitalized for preterm labor!

when dan and i heard the doc say bedrest for at least  6 weeks we couldnt even fathom how that would be doable...and look! 

8 weeks have come and gone...some days easier than others but we survived!

my sandman has been amazing...from turning into super superdad...to   serving me meals in bed...always remembering what i like.

and my parents are here everyday taking care of us!! 

especially my sweet wonderful strong momma! her patience and strength amaze me...hoping that one day  ill be even close to the genourous thoughtful relentlessly strong and sweet mom that she is to me...

well....here we are...july 20th...35 weeks pregnant!!!! my heart is so thankful to still be growing  this little  belly baby inside me!

and to be celebrating my beautiful boy....

Happy Birthday Jack Sullivan Johnson!

You are 1!

my sweet boy! i cant b elieve its been a year since my water broke in the car on the way home from target...1 yr since your natural painful exhilerating wonderful birth!
a yr since the 8 weeks you spent in the nicu...at childrens in bosoton and in newburyport....
1 yr since you captured my heart my  little bear cub..my explorer...my sweet defender of the faith.
i love you!

1 week

1 week...1 week! till 35 weeks pregnant....

had a doctors appt. today....ultrasound showed bellybaby doll weighing in at 5 lbs 1 oz!!! i feel relieved- she is a good size!! my cervix is barely there...but!! still barely there.. not gone!!!!

funneling has stopped and my doc thinks based on the fact that it seems the contractions are changing anything..i can make it 2 more weeks!!!

i feel so thankful and blessed. maybe we ll have a full term baby after all!!!

now if only we can decide on a name!!!!

single digits.

i cant believe we are in the single digits for this waiting game!!!

bellybaby doll is growing and moving and still in!

in 9 days i will be 35 weeks pregnant.. the most pregnant ill have ever been!!!

in 9 days i will breathe a huge sigh of relief..

and will still hope and pray for as many days as possible of belly growing for this little girl!!

in 9 days i will stretch my legs and lift my arms to the sun and laugh and praise the faithfulness of my beautiful wonderful saviour...my God who knows my name!!!

and my sweet unborn girls name..even if we dont yet...:)))))

Psalm 139

1-6 God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand.

I'm an open book to you;

even from a distance, you know what I'm thinking.

You know when I leave and when I get back;

I'm never out of your sight.

You know everything I'm going to say

before I start the first sentence.

I look behind me and you're there,

then up ahead and you're there, too—

your reassuring presence, coming and going.

This is too much, too wonderful—

I can't take it all in!

7-12 Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit?

to be out of your sight?

If I climb to the sky, you're there!

If I go underground, you're there!

If I flew on morning's wings

to the far western horizon,

You'd find me in a minute—

you're already there waiting!

Then I said to myself, "Oh, he even sees me in the dark!

At night I'm immersed in the light!"

It's a fact: darkness isn't dark to you;

night and day, darkness and light, they're all the same to you.

13-16 Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;

you formed me in my mother's womb.

I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking!

Body and soul, I am marvelously made!

I worship in adoration—what a creation!

You know me inside and out,

you know every bone in my body;

You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,

how I was sculpted from nothing into something.

Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;

all the stages of my life were spread out before you,

The days of my life all prepared

before I'd even lived one day.

17-22 Your thoughts—how rare, how beautiful!

God, I'll never comprehend them!

I couldn't even begin to count them—

any more than I could count the sand of the sea.

Oh, let me rise in the morning and live always with you

so faithful. so thankful.

blessed beyond measure.

 overwhelmed with the Goodness and Grace of my God.

 He is for me. sigh.

15

short wonderful days til 35 weeks.

so really.  so blessed.

my sandman makes me breakfast and coffee every morning..in the middle if getting all 3 kids breakfast and cleaned up..then hes off to work ..most days with out eating anything  himself.

he rushes home from busy days at work just in time to pop babies in the tub ...sing some songs..jammies on then ..off to bed ...and once again is feeding me...

its the little things you know... last night  our bedroom was so hot and i was contracting and miserable and he brought me some freeze poops and a cool cloth  for my face... my tough guy sandman.. wiping my brow...:)

and my favorite thing is no matter how much rushing around hes doing..

he always slows down for a kiss goodbye...and snuggles the kids before leaving...

its the little beautiful things.