Thursday, May 31, 2012


Everything about you, my almost 3 yr old, seems so bright and beautiful. Your dark lashes and blue eyes.. Sweet sandy curls.. pOuty rosy lips. you are curled up against me, getting sleepy.. Telling me a story using words I didn't know you - Actually- and -brand new-.. and "to tall for words" your saying "pretty flowers make your heart tingle" and explaining to me how your 2 and a big big girl...

earlier today you excitedly and incredulously came up to me and said . ( pointing t your throat) 'Jesus put a new song right here mama.. for me... hear it now?' and sang the sweetest little melody.....i said oh ava its beautiful and you said 'yea.. jesus gave it to me...'

when I'm stressed out you lay your hands on m e and say a prayer for me to feel better....

what a bright beautiful amazing heart you have my bluebird.. your so lovable.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Went in kitchen to do a few things... Left Ella and Ava in living room.. Happily playing....told Ava she was in charge.....
Minutes later she runs into kitchen..

Mama ! Charge is hard work! Your turn now!

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

my heart tonight

I see the cloud, I step in
I want to see Your glory as Moses did
Flashes of light and rolls of thunder, 

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory
[ Lyrics from: ]
I'm awed by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes
I long to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I'm overwhelmed

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory

I long to look on the face of the One that I love
Long to stay in your presence, it's where I belong

Oh how we love you, Oh how we love you
Oh how we love you Jesus

-jesus culture

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

god in me

I got to share at NLC mothers day tea this past weekend.... Wanted to jot down some notes to remember...

spoke about the amazing women in my life.. 

about how gram luisa taught me that if your going to l i v e.. you better really LIVE....

about how gram dola taught me that love will find me.. not to go looking for love.

about how momalla said the sinners prayer with me.. when i was 5.. in the hallway at the grapal street house... stopping to wait for the phone to stop ringing because this was an important thing... 
about how she prayered for me one day - when i was sick and thank Jesus for healing me.. when i asked her why? because i wasn't better mommy said.. but i know you will be... such faith....

talked about how my whole life the Lord spoke over me through great men and women of God promising me miracles... that He was saving me for something great!

about me and the sandman.. and .our Testimony of we are ~together by design~...

about our losses.. and our angel babies in heaven..

about how God spoke to my sad heart.. and reminded me that i may feel dry but my roots are deep and by the river... jer 17:7 & 8

about my miracle... Ava West

about my joy...Jack Sullivan

about my peace.. Ella Victory

about how now that my baby making days are over....

 He wants me to still be expectant with His dreams and visions for my life.... Pregnant with Promise.....

Delivery..dont be afraid..... just like giving birth to a baby.. the pain is quickly forgotten and diminished in the face of my future in His plan...

about how everyday i am challenged to be beautifully wonderfully amazingly rooted.. like a tree by the river... 
never fearing the heat.. or the dry times... 
trusting God in me... 

Monday, May 14, 2012

So this morning... Ella is finally sleeping after being up all night...

And Ava and Jack are quietly sitting eating oatmeal and I'm trying to steal these moments and read my devotional.. But I can't...I'm just staring at my babies. And breathing in the sweetness.. My heart is actually overflowing with thankfullness and joy.

My blessings are so great.

Oh man.... Dan just popped back in after already leaving for work with a Starbucks for me...well that's the icing on the cake..

He speaks my language. My cup runneth over...xoxo

Lord, you heard me.. You hear me.. And I'm so humbled and grateful. You restore my soul.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012


Agh choooo....Excuse me mama! Me cused! (meaning sneezed)

Me got you mama......tickle tickle tickle!


Mama make me (a) happy cowboy.

Once upon a turn!

Favorite song:  Twinkle twinkle little star