sandman

just want to take a minute to record so i remember and our children always know..
 dan - i love you. i love your hard working - pain in the neck leaving your shoes all around the house- gentle self.. i love you how you kiss me goodbye every morning with a tight squeeze with both arms around me. i love when you kiss our babies on the lis and call them their special names.. i love that you bought me a steam vacuum cleaner and a dust buster when i needed cheering up. i love how you tuck the babies in and tend to there nighttime cries. i love you eyes across the room.  i love you more and more and more. crazy in love.
~s

A

Dear Ava
You are the funniest girl today.
When you didn't get the second lollipop (yummy earth organic) you wanted .. You stamped your little barefoot and alternated folding you'd arms / putting your hands on your hips... Saying ooooo me so frustrated.. NEVERMIND mama.. NEVERMIND. .

I love you my fierce girl.

Ps- we recovered by playing a fabulous game of " imagination"...together- you made md pretend breakfast.. You described the cups plates and food in great detail and used sound effects!! Love you bluebird.

Spent the morning in Newburyport... Playground.... Hot dog stand... Ice coffee - such fun!

plans

i have a dream for my girls... a dream for my little man...

i have plans for them- i watch them everyday and feel like i can see their future... 

jack is my music man.. he's always drumming and playing air guitar- is so sensitive to the Spirit.. cries when songs sound melancholy or sad... is a worshipper....but knows how to use his cute little charm in just the right way... my cowboy

( lord bind his heart to yours!!! - may purity be his) 

already ella is  music girl after my own heart.. lights up and bebop's to a good song.. puts her head down and soaks in the slow sweet sounds...

she's shaping up to be a strong personality- with a  killer smile. my firefly.

and my ava. my bluebird... such dreams i have for her...

 she's so sensitive to the beautiful things around her- so thoughtful and inquisitive..her view on life is like the ocean... 

 but my heart was seriously challenged this morning.. wondering what the future holds for her... wondering ( and thinking the worst) how her sensory needs will change and stretch or limit her  

and my God . my beautiful God in His strength and in His grace...

( thank you Lord for your Grace!)

quieted my heart and put my narrow view of His perfect plan

 in front of me face and spoke into my spirit.. 

" I have a plan for Ava West"

" I have a plan for Jack Sullivan"

"I have a plan for Ella Victory"

so gentle. so powerful.

who am i? 

so good to trust an all powerful God .

 a god who is my Saviour.. again and again and again.

thankful for His perfect plan. His perfect design.

more things i don't want to forget:
jacks eartube surgery " i hear you mama"

ella sharing

avas 1st day of preschool

breakfast picnics outside

feeding the chickens

Things

I need to blog about:

How jacks new deal is sticking out his tongue ...gross.. Fresh.. Cute.

How Dan bought a motorcycle

Ella's new skills

Ava's 3 rd birthday

How she calls her new bike her motorcycle and when she can't quite peddl she said this motorcycle needs gas!!!

Leah's visit and how long her legs are and how fast 8 years goes...

About how we sing and dance and play air guitar.. Drums...violin to I happy day you washed my sings away. 100 times a day

Bout how Ava always says that's why I'm a big girl.,,and " why you do that sometimes mama"

Bout how jack runs up and says want to hug you mama!!

Bout his much my babies love and laugh and fill up my heart

Dan said it last night. Our quiver is full and it feels good.

took my cowboy jack to the end doc today ..finally....8 ear infections in 7 months!!!! poor little man.. we had the best time together despite his constant pulling on his ears saying
ouchie mama..jesus heal please?

during the hearing test he kept saying 'so scary mama so so scary mama.. need daddy come fix it mama.. so scary...' so sweet

he just loves pop these days especially. pop and his g-tar..

I'm thinking ( and praying) that my jack will be a music man for sure... a catchy commercial will stop him in his tracks....any singing gives him cause to bust out his little air g-tar.....and his favorite game is deciding who plays what imaginary instrument... ava drums.. mama...violin... ella do re mi (piano)..."me jack..gtar!!"
songs of the moment 'o happy day you washed my sin away" (kim walker) and jack can be found alone rocking back and forth singing " no sweeter name than the name of jesus" (kari jobs)

watched him fall asleep in the car after a long doc visit . and am just marveling at his perfect lashes and his sweet lips and his amazing heart.
love.

Ava

Everything about you, my almost 3 yr old, seems so bright and beautiful. Your dark lashes and blue eyes.. Sweet sandy curls.. pOuty rosy lips. you are curled up against me, getting sleepy.. Telling me a story using words I didn't know you knew..like - Actually- and -brand new-.. and "to tall for words" your saying "pretty flowers make your heart tingle" and explaining to me how your 2 and a big big girl...

earlier today you excitedly and incredulously came up to me and said . ( pointing t your throat) 'Jesus put a new song right here mama.. for me... hear it now?' and sang the sweetest little melody.....i said oh ava its beautiful and you said 'yea.. jesus gave it to me...'

when I'm stressed out you lay your hands on m e and say a prayer for me to feel better....

what a bright beautiful amazing heart you have my bluebird.. your so lovable.

Went in kitchen to do a few things... Left Ella and Ava in living room.. Happily playing....told Ava she was in charge.....
Minutes later she runs into kitchen..


Mama ! Charge is hard work! Your turn now!

my heart tonight

I see the cloud, I step in
I want to see Your glory as Moses did
Flashes of light and rolls of thunder, 

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/jesus_culture/show_me_your_glory.html ]
I'm awed by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes
I long to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I'm overwhelmed

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory

I long to look on the face of the One that I love
Long to stay in your presence, it's where I belong

Oh how we love you, Oh how we love you
Oh how we love you Jesus

-jesus culture