my heart tonight

I see the cloud, I step in
I want to see Your glory as Moses did
Flashes of light and rolls of thunder, 

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/jesus_culture/show_me_your_glory.html ]
I'm awed by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes
I long to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I'm overwhelmed

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory

I long to look on the face of the One that I love
Long to stay in your presence, it's where I belong

Oh how we love you, Oh how we love you
Oh how we love you Jesus

-jesus culture

god in me

I got to share at NLC mothers day tea this past weekend.... Wanted to jot down some notes to remember...

spoke about the amazing women in my life.. 

about how gram luisa taught me that if your going to l i v e.. you better really LIVE....

about how gram dola taught me that love will find me.. not to go looking for love.

about how momalla said the sinners prayer with me.. when i was 5.. in the hallway at the grapal street house... stopping to wait for the phone to stop ringing because this was an important thing... 

about how she prayered for me one day - when i was sick and thank Jesus for healing me.. when i asked her why? because i wasn't better mommy said.. but i know you will be... such faith....

talked about how my whole life the Lord spoke over me through great men and women of God promising me miracles... that He was saving me for something great!

about me and the sandman.. and .our Testimony of love..how we are ~together by design~...

about our losses.. and our angel babies in heaven..

about how God spoke to my sad heart.. and reminded me that i may feel dry but my roots are deep and by the river... jer 17:7 & 8

about my miracle... Ava West

about my joy...Jack Sullivan

about my peace.. Ella Victory

about how now that my baby making days are over....

 He wants me to still be expectant with His dreams and visions for my life.... Pregnant with Promise.....

Delivery..dont be afraid..... just like giving birth to a baby.. the pain is quickly forgotten and diminished in the face of my future in His plan...

about how everyday i am challenged to be beautifully wonderfully amazingly rooted.. like a tree by the river... 

never fearing the heat.. or the dry times... 

trusting God in me... 

So this morning... Ella is finally sleeping after being up all night...

And Ava and Jack are quietly sitting eating oatmeal and I'm trying to steal these moments and read my devotional.. But I can't...I'm just staring at my babies. And breathing in the sweetness.. My heart is actually overflowing with thankfullness and joy.

My blessings are so great.

Oh man.... Dan just popped back in after already leaving for work with a Starbucks for me...well that's the icing on the cake..

He speaks my language. My cup runneth over...xoxo

Lord, you heard me.. You hear me.. And I'm so humbled and grateful. You restore my soul.

JACK:

Agh choooo....Excuse me mama! Me cused! (meaning sneezed)

Me got you mama......tickle tickle tickle!

Laaluuu

Mama make me (a) happy cowboy.

Once upon a time...you turn!

Favorite song:  Twinkle twinkle little star

Ava-isms:

"me body just feels too crazy mama"

"Kids are too noisy"

"Me almost freak out mama"

"You better now mama? Me doing Better."

"o wow..o wow"

in a happy moment..."happy new year everybody!"

Ava:....walks casually into room..."actually? .i pooped."

"nevermind mama.. nevermind.....me wishing for something mama.." oh? yeah..
..."something cold and juicy...something like a freeze pop mama.. me really wishing for that...but never mind...."


After a meltdown: "me ont know what just happened... Me love u mama"

love u ava~!!!!!

 the bluebird

 AVA WEST

the cowboy

JACK SULLIVAN

the firefly

ELLA VICTORY

spent a beautiful day in the sunshine. 

love you my sweet babies

Easter Sunday!

spent the night before up with sick throwing up babies but everyone made it through the night ( thanks daddy) and by breakfast were feeling good!!!!

we made it to church and stayed for the entire service!!! i lead worship..

(He lives...Happy day...My chains are gone...Run..O how He loves.) 

always a blessing but even more so when i can see my little family all together worshipping.. ava slept on daddys lap for most of the interactive service but jack was very very interested in what pop was preaching about... at one point the drama team was depicted the fight between satan and Jesus and jack was asking me where "super why ' ( kids show) was??.. but when Jesus won.. jack cheered!!! the rest of the day he preached..: Jesus is the champion".. . 

Thank you Jesus for your grace and mercy - Death has NO victory!

Ava: jack boy... Play me?
Jack: no thank you
Ava: jack.. Jesus say Play Ava!!
Jack: (hand to ear for a few)...no. No thank you. ( walks away)


Ava after a play group friend wasn't sharing.."Jesus be so sad with you! Me not..Jesus is!"

32

its my 32 nd birthday.

was woken up by my 2 sweet fellas...hearing Jack say happy birthday in the sweetest voice made my day! I've asked him to say it about two hundred. times. wonderful...then my bluebird sang to me...

 I got lots of baby hugs and sandman kisses.

fun gifts from my parents ( pedicure here i come!)

 and the most valuable gift of time so Dan and I could go on a lunchdate!!

1st one in at least a year....(true story)

went to not your average joes.. had cider mustard pork..held hands... deliciousness...

loved hearing my sweet babies say happy birthday mama

all day!!! 

loved smelling my beautiful dozen roses from dan! 

and my special single rose from my daddy

 ( which was hand delivered first thing in the morning with a starbucks double tall soy 1 pump mocha!!!) !

love love love my wonderful gift from my sandman.. 

frye campus 14l boots!!!! in dark brown!!!!

 I've been asking and wishing for this bad boys for yearssssss.....and he surprised me this year! 

and I'm determined not to feel guilty over the extravagance!!!

 thank you baby!

xoxxoxo ill wear them every single day. i will. 

hello 32..im ready for you....