pregnancy update

sooo......just for the sake of ...

baby #3

positive test dec 10th 9 ( days after d's ."procedure")

week 7,8,9,10...bleeding. stress. trust

week 12 diagnosed with placenta previa

week 20 its a girl! all is well with baby! cervix only 2.8

week 22  cervix 2.3

week 24 cervix 1.7...major funneling

week 26 contractions. cervix soft open funneling dilated 1cm

hospitalized. contractions. low blood pressure.

bedrest

week 29. still here. on procaradia 10 mg every 6 hours. contractions. at home

trusting.hopeful. 38 days.

hopeful.

im t r y i n g.



avallla

sooo.. enough of my complaining..........( 41 more days in case you forgot...)

in other news.....

my little bluebird is almost 2!! i cant believe it..seems like just yesterday i was laughing as she entered the world... everynight before bed i tell her a little story and end it with.. Jesus wanted mama to know that He heard her prayers and He loves her very much so Jesus  decieded to send her a miracle.. a little bluebird named ava!!!...

ava loves it & i love to remind her that our God does hear us! and she is my tangible miracle!!!

avas favorite things:

doing everything herself

peaches

kissing everyone  and everything she loves

going for walks..looking for birds (cheeep cheeps) ..and chasing ants

rubbing the babybelly

dada and papa ( lots of love for gigi -britney and mama too)

teaching jack to walk........

and calling auntie val or uncle do (la) on the phone



sigh

so today marks 29 weeks of being pregnant!! great big milestone!!! bellybaby is growing!

today marks 2 weeks since going to the doc for a routine chck and being hospitalized....

(& 5 days since being sent home!!)

sigh. today  means the end of the 2 week safe window since the last negative ffn test

 (which if negative gives u a 99 % chance of NOT going into preterm labor for the next 2 week..).

nervous. that 99% gave me peace of mind. 

and today is a day im trying desperately to hold on to the sweet promises of God..

and remember the miracle that this little life inside me is..

trying desperately to trust God in me because i feel alone...trying to trust all will be well....

trusting the Giver of Perfect Peace.

42 more days. seems like a lifetime.

Psalm 55:22

22Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you... He will never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail).

over the rainbow

trusting today. counting my beautiful blessings.

 the bellybabydoll has been moving and bouncing around. makes me smile....

feeling like 43days is a looonnggg time this morning.....the minutes seem to tick by very slowly..

thrilled to be home with my family. the kids new favorite game is running (crawling)  the length of the living room...toys on one end...mama in bed on the other end!!

sweet smiles are priceless!

my sandman is a champ and taking good care of me...

not to mention my gem of a mother who is sacrificing her life these days to be with us!!!

loved. xoxo

45

45 Days till 35weeks..

 im safe at home in my cozy nest...

sharing my time between my quiet bedroom

and the lovely bed the sandman made me in the living room so i can be part of family life!

ava and jack are growing!! and im so happy to be here to watch` it....

the toughest thing though is not rshing to scoop up a crying baby.....or trying to reason with  almost 2yr old ava...about why i cant get up and "ring around the posie...'

but

45 days to enjoy my little family from a bed...45 days to pray over my bellybabydoll...and help her grow...

45 days ...trusting. believing. knowing God sees  me..hearing my heartbeats...

holla

 in a few hours i will be settled into my own little bed.....

 in my own little house...... with my handsome guy and my sweet sweet babies.

holllllaaaaaaaaa!

well yes....

because i am going home soon!!!

home to the sweet snuggs of my babies and home to my sandmans strong arm hugs.

home to gigi & papa bear and smiles and prayers and a little bed made up for me on the floor of the living room so i can be a part of family life!!

happy .

thankful.

Jesus. my provider.

to cherish

things i cherish

ava tilting her face sideways saying 'mama"? then pointing to her heart. and nodding when i say mama loves ava....

jacks hands exploring every nook and cranny in every toy..floorboard..wall crevis

making my morning coffee with ava on the counter ready to stir it all up herself.. rubbing her tummy.."ummm" when i take the 1st sip

dans silent i love yous acrosss the room.

jacks shy head tilt..followed by a big smile

thebellybaby bouncing and rolling as if to tell me ..its okay im still here

the way dan even in a hurry slows down when he kisses me

the way hugs seem to melt us in to one. me. belly.ava. dan. jack.

we fit. just right.